anxious.

Love Yourself More

the anxiety persists. as i mentioned i got into a car accident - xrays came back yesterday saying that i have first signs of degeneration.  i admit that i am scared, but i can move everything - so i am focusing on that instead.  

i want to start running again - i was just getting into it as well. it sucks what happened but i really want to focus  on getting back to being physically active. but i realized everything happens for a reason.  i was trying to do too much all at once and i wasn't really good at either: eating well was going oh so wrong and exercise was giving me anxiety and making  me feel a bit overwhelmed.  so i feel like the universe told me to stop
and listen to what you're feeling and take it slow.  so now i am forced to just focus on one aspect - because that's all i can really do.  i am so much more aware of my food intake then ever before, i feel calmer about food - not every second of every day, but much more than before.  

i will be 120lbs before long. i can feel it in my bones.  just in the last couple of days i dropped three pounds, which is huge.  i love that the universe looks out for me, even if the message sometimes is painful.  i need to listen to the lighter messages.  i realized how out of touch i am of my needs and desires - i want 2013 to be the year of "me". i love helping people, its this innate drive within me that always wants to help everyone, but if my cup is empty i can't really help anyone.  i want to feel inspired. 

to the stars, 

uma