too many fears.

"Focus on where you want to go, not on what you fear."

~Anthony Robbins

i am feeling lazy to go to the gym. i enjoy the process once i arrive but lateley i haven't been motivated to go.  


on sunday i was trying to run my usual 25 minutes on the treadmill @ 6 mph, rather than 5.7 mph and i just couldn't do it.  i could hardly make it to five minutes without stopping.  it really de-motivated me. it annoyed me and angered me.  so much that i no longer like the treadmill.


i also have this bad habit of avoiding water.  i avoid water like the plague, not  tea, green tea, coffee, even OJ - just water.  i feel like water stays locked in and doesn't leave my body once it enters.  it's a paranoia, another fear.


i told myself this is the year that i let go of fear.  i don't want to live in the shadow of fear. fear of failure. fear of falling short. fear of not succeeding. fear of danger. injury. embarrassment. too many fears.


i need to get unstuck.


to the stars,


uma