the importance of a journal

"act as if it were impossible to fail"

i have been super slacking with the blogging aspect.  it's important for me to keep the habit of daily blogging to ensure that i am conscious about my lifestyle change.  i don't want to call it a diet, because that has a short term ring to it.  i want my "diet" to be for life.   in the past i didn't know enough about food and exercise to make the required healthy choices.  that's what i am trying to change now - my knowledge about what is good for me.  that's why i need to conscious during this phase.  


the last time i lost a ton of weight i did it thinking that it was a temporary sacrifice that would wean long term benefits.  it's retrospect i realize how irrational this was, but at the time i didn't know any better.  and i did lose a lot of weight basically by cutting down food. but then as soon as i lost the weight and became emotionally distressed i went back to food.  


monitoring my sleep has been another addition to my wellness conscious.  it has been really helping me.  i used to depend on coffee and other stimulants to keep me alert.  but through exercise, the right amount of food and proper sleep and rest i feel that i am functioning at a much better state than coffee ever provided me with.  sleep is so important, the days i lack sleep i am super irritable, lazy and confounded to sitting.  the days when i get enough i am much more amiable. creative, and productive.  


another improvement on the diet front, i think the two times a week fasting is shrinking my tummy.  i can't seem to eat as much as before, and my hunger cues and fullness cues are much more distinguished.  i like that.  i tried to eat a slice of cake, and i just couldn't finish the whole thing yesterday - i eventually did over a three hour period. but embarrassingly, there were times in the past where i could have gone for a second piece.  mind you my diet yesterday was not entirely great, portion control is getting easier to manage.  


emotionally, i am a bit distressed these days - but i am not turning to food. in the past food was my only savior. but now i am reading and writing and talking to people and getting my emotions out rather than stuffing them in my tummy underneath loads of food.  sometimes i hesitate to talk about my bad food habits because of embarrassing myself, but i know as i progress in this journey it will get easier and easier.   i am seeing progress, not nearly fast enough - but it is progress nonetheless.  


to the stars, 


uma